1. I might take some ZzzQuil so I can actually sleep tonight. A mix of anxiety and excitement seem to be a part of me and I can only dream about my students and school supplies lately. With that said, I've been having some restless nights.
2. I am VERY lucky. I experienced a job hunt that was relatively easy. I whole heartedly believe that this had nothing to do with me and everything to do with my loving Savior. Not only was the job hunt successful, but I was given a job at the school that I have grown to respect and love. I love the staff and am absolutely blessed to be part of the fourth grade team - I'm slowly becoming obsessed by how awesome these women are. All I can say is that God knew what I could and could not handle and has provided beautifully.
3. I'm short. I have always known this and it has always been something that I have been self-conscious about, but after meeting my fourth graders on Friday, man... finding me in class will be hard. They are either my height or will very soon be taller than me. Ironically, they didn't seem to notice, hm.
4. Lack of balance. I haven't been able to not think about school, the kids, my sticky-note(s) to-do lists, etc. since I started training two weeks ago. I have always said that I want to be able to balance my life and leave work at work. I'm beginning to wonder if I can do this...I might need to talk to my coworkers who have seemed to master this concept. Maybe I just haven't found my groove quite yet...
5. My feelings are all over the place. I'm terrified and excited at the same time. My responsibility is deeply important - to foster each of my students academically and also foster to their well-being. That's a lot of responsibility! I know I can do it, I'm just afraid I will fail. Geez, I love them too much, ha.
6. It's going to be a great year. Beyond the fear, anxiety, and the sporadic excitement, there is a deep peace that this year is going to be wonderful: learning will occur not only for my students but for myself, old friendships will deepen and new friendships will blossom, and I will be part of my students' growth. What a gift that is!
7. God is good.